Chapter 1: Why Am I Here on Earth?


I wrote this book to answer the questions I hear over and over from my clients. The questions are always the same: "Why am I here on Earth? What is my purpose? Why did I pick a planet and lifetime with so much pain and suffering?"

Perhaps a better question is, "Are we creators or are we victims?" Most people believe and behave as if they are victims. It's hard for them to believe they would purposely create the things that happen to them. As creators, I believe we are here on Earth to master all the conditions we, as humans, place on love. The situations we create in our lives allow us opportunities to master these conditions; I believe we return here over and over until we do master all the conditions we place on love.

Earth is a realm of dualities consisting of love at one pole and hate at the other. In between are all the other dualities we experience as humans: War-Peace. Joy-Anguish. Hope-Despair. Happiness-Sadness. Abundance-Poverty. Betrayal-Loyalty. Beauty-Ugliness. Dualities are the dynamic fields in which we compose the lessons we create for ourselves.

If we are here on Earth to master unconditional love, don't we also have to master love's duality -- hate? How many of us have mastered the love-hate duality within ourselves? How many of us hate ourselves? Or parts of ourselves? I am not sure it's possible to unconditionally love others until we first learn to love ourselves. What we can do now, however, is have unconditional compassion for others while we are learning to have unconditional love for ourselves.

In 1985, I developed a system of personal transformation called Multidimensional Cellular Healing™. I've renamed this process Heart & Soul Healing™. During a Heart & Soul Healing session, I assist my client in his or her journey toward love, compassion, and understanding their purpose here on Earth. The dynamics of a client's lessons about love often originate in past lives.

Are there even such things as past lives? After doing more than 29,000 past life regressions, I believe there are many possible answers to that question. Whether past lives are linear or holographic life times, they are the way my clients, via their subconscious minds, create stories that help them look at and understand their present lives in a different way.

I believe we are all a part of God and the collective consciousness of all creation. If all of us are One and part of the Creator, sharing a collective consciousness, then we collectively experience everyone's physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual realities. If this theory is true, then everything that has ever happened to anyone anywhere -- at anytim e-- is also a part of us.

Perhaps this concept is too overwhelming because of the linear way most of us perceive our lives. So for now, let's agree that there are past lives, or at least past experiences, and that we have been on a linear path to this time and place. How does this understanding help my clients answer the question of how they ended up here, often in the middle of so much suffering? For my client Leslie, one of her past lives helped her to understand the dynamics she was still creating in her present life.

Leslie had a past life as a peasant in Old Russia. Her family experienced famine, hopelessness, fear, conflict, and pain. They suffered unbearably and she vowed, "I am going to do something about this situation if it's the last thing I ever do." What if the energy and feelings around that promise, made centuries ago, is still with her today? How would that affect her life now?

Leslie has two spiritual tasks to address in this lifetime. She needs to master unconditional love for herself and complete the promise she made in the past. She began this life by choosing her parents. The energetic patterns around them were what initially attracted her spirit. Their energies and issues were the exact reflection of the conditions she needed to master to evolve.

Leslie's parents in this life mirrored life in Old Russia. They were poor, in bad health, helpless, living in a cold apartment, and unable to handle conflict. As she grew up, Leslie blamed her parents for her troubled life and misfortunes. She was determined to do something about the conditions that crushed her parents and seemed to be plaguing her life as well. She constantly recreated situations of conflict, hopelessness, and poverty in her life and wanted to know why. What she wanted was exactly the opposite.

During her Heart & Soul Healing™ session, Leslie remembered the past life promise she made in Old Russia and realized that to achieve the abundant, joyous life she chose for herself, she would have to balance the dualities of abundance-poverty, hope-despair, and conflict-peace within herself. Leslie realized she would be free to change her world by loving herself as she was--in spite of everything she felt she lacked and disliked about herself -- and having unconditional compassion for her parents. By addressing and mastering the negative end of a duality, despair for example, she was able to bring unconditional hope into her life.

Most of my clients, like Leslie, subconsciously continue to use the same energetic patterns, first encountered in their parents, to attract people, relationships, and challenging situations to help them learn to master unconditional love. The love-hate duality is a major life lesson we all must master in our spiritual evolution.

If we master every condition we place on love, we will have unconditional compassion for all creation. We come to Earth lifetime after lifetime and eventually experience everything that has been created. By experiencing all possible creations ourselves, we learn unconditional compassion for the creations of others -- without judgement. Imagine. Judgements create separation from others, ourselves, and our Creator. When we no longer separate ourselves and love ourselves unconditionally, others will feel that love in themselves.

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