Chapter 14: The Power of the Soul

In the fall of 1995, I was honored to be invited to teach at a four-day gathering at Jekyll Island, Georgia with some other wonderful teachers. This was the first Solar Heart conference. In a discussion six months prior to the event, my uncle, Drunvalo Melchizedeck, expressed some concern. He was also one of the teachers presenting at the conference, and he felt that since so much information was going to be offered it might be overwhelming for the participants, and perhaps the teachers as well. He was concerned that everyone would be challenged to remain emotionally balanced. Because of my knowledge of energetics, I agreed to keep the energy balanced over that weekend.

On the second day of the conference, during the excitement of sharing my work amongst these talented teachers, I received specific directions from my Higher Self: "You have to call all the negative energy of the planet into yourself." It seemed like a crazy suggestion, and I questioned the purpose of such a demonstration.

My inner voice repeated that I needed to call in every aspect of creation into myself, and if I truly loved myself nothing could hurt me. I realized that negative creations are simply energy, and there was nothing outside of myself to be concerned about. The only thing I needed be afraid of was my inner fear or anything I did not truly love about myself. The voice continued, "And you need to call all this energy into yourself while on-stage before the whole group."

I was concerned that the audience and the other teachers would not understand what I was going to do. I asked my Higher Self "Why do I have to do this? Will anyone understand? Do I have to do this?" Spirit answered, "Even if they do not understand why you are doing this, it is what you have come to Earth to teach."

As the conference proceeded, I became increasingly worried and scared. All I wanted was to be loved by these new and celebrated friends in a future I thought I was about to create. Now I was being asked to do something weird. For two long days, I fought Spirit's suggestion, sometimes full of fear and moments later, full of courage. I wondered what the consequences would be and what people would think of me. I could hear them all saying, "He's too strange." In the end, I remembered how much I trusted my Higher Self, the quiet voice inside me that had offered me so much wisdom and guidance in the past. In the end, I submitted to my inner voice.

On the fourth and last day of the conference it was my turn to speak again. I attached my microphone, stepped into the spotlight, grounded myself, took a few deep breaths, and looked out upon the 350 people in the audience. I was about to change my life. I started off discussing Heart & Soul Healing, and everything seemed pretty normal. Next, I demonstrated animal healing techniques by working with a dog that belonged to one of the conference staff members. All still seemed to be going well. Then I realized that I had used almost all of my allotted time. I was putting off my task from Spirit until the last moment, trying to postpone the inevitable.

As soon as I received the "ten minute" advisory from the stage director, I knew it was now or never. I grounded and centered myself, took a few deep breaths, and loved myself. I looked out upon the unsuspecting audience and began. In a loud voice, I said, ³I am now going to call into myself all the negativity of the planet.² I could feel the room changing, as many shifted in their seats with puzzled looks on their faces. I was so scared and frightened, but I knew I had to continue in front of all these people.

Trembling I went on, "I call in hate. I call in war. I call in evil. I call in disease. I call in sadness. I call in pain. I call in power and control. I call in suffering. I call in cancer. I call in all drug addiction. I call in Satan. I call in all fear and all death." The words were screaming in my mind, but I could barely hear the words I was saying. All I knew was I had done what Spirit had asked of me. The room got so quiet you could have heard a pin drop. The shocked faces of the audience looked up at me, waiting to see if I was going to implode, explode, or die.

As I watched the audience watching me, I could feel different bands of energy coming into me. It surprised me that these energy bands were not coming from outside the room, they were coming from inside the room! The energy was coming from the audience as they released the negative energy they were holding in their bodies. Because I had physically called this energy to me with compassion, the group unconsciously released it with ease. As I held a place of nonjudgment and loved myself, the negative vibrations healed, creating a shift, a stillness in the room.

As I concluded my demonstration, my inner voice said, "As you love yourself, all the different dualities just become energy and will pass right through you. Nothing outside of you can hurt you when you love yourself unconditionally."

No one clapped as I left the stage. I felt mortified and rejected. Anxiety grabbed my heart and squeezed. Had I just made the biggest mistake of my life? But I knew I had done the right thing and been true to my heart. Spirit was using me as a tool because I had volunteered to be all that I could be. I headed for the back of the auditorium, feeling alone, isolated, and judged. I needed to go into the silence of myself as never before.

I sat in the back of the auditorium, and my eyes filled with tears. I knew everyone was confused about what I had just done. I had never heard of anyone doing anything like what I had just done. As I sat quietly in the back, I realized that the waves of pain, grief, fear, and sadness I had felt while on stage were the audience's pain and despair. In that moment I felt great compassion for all of us.

The judgment and criticism about what I had done rested upon me for the next two years. Many of the people who had previously aligned themselves with me did not understanding what I had done and distanced themselves or drifted away. Even now, knowing how that one demonstration would affect my life, I would do it again. By following the direction of Spirit, I gained a clear understanding of what could be experienced when one is centered in unconditional love and balanced with one's fears: negativity has no power. When we have full compassion and are open to receiving these energies, we allow them to shift and come into balance. This is a way we can help heal all of consciousness.

There is an interesting photo of me on-stage during the exact moment I became one with all energy. I printed it as a postcard and have given away thousands of copies at my workshops. In the photo, dressed in my white shirt and dark pants, I am enveloped in orange and yellow flames. Superimposed over the flames in back and around me are thirteen shadowy figures. Looking like I was standing in the flames of hell did not bother me but those shadowy figures did.

It took me a year to understand that the shadowy figures represented different aspects of me. As I started to love everything, thirteen parts of me caught up in other realities, vibrations, and dimensions recognize me and began to integrate. I became an intra-dimensional gate, an opening into all time.

As these pieces integrated over the next year, I could see them in a mirror stacking up behind me. When they finally integrated, my Chi, or Pranic energy, became neon electric-blue, sometimes appearing as violet. During this process a halo appeared about twelve inches above my head and then another halo above that. A total of three halos appeared in a holographic, stair-stepping effect, creating an intra-dimensional gate through which others could enter or depart.

Over the last four years, I often wake up at five in the morning and begin balancing consciousness by calling into myself all the energies of the planet. I am comfortable with all these vibrations; I have learned to have compassion for all creation.