Chapter 12: Inner Pieces of Duality: The Hidden Side of the Soul

In February of 1993, I began teaching monthly workshops. My healing work at this point consisted mainly of scanning a client's energy field with my hands, working with their symbols, and investigating their past lives. By the fall of 1994, when I taught my first practitioner training course, my empathic abilities were expanding day by day. Heart &Soul Healing (HSH) had developed into a system that worked with a client's nervous system, energetic bodies, and past and future life memories. I also began working with spirit release, soul retrieval, and holographic cellular clearing, as well as healing collective consciousnesses and inner mind programs.

During this time, I was rapidly discovering new techniques to help my clients become more conscious of their multidimensionality. I became keenly aware of anything that blocked my clients' access into this marvelous range of healing energies. I found that the memories of unresolved past events are carried in our minds and cells and imprint the physical body as patterns that block access to the flowering of our multidimensional range of abilities. I realized that the energetic patterns on our physical body are a roadmap, allowing me to access subconscious programs. I call these patterns of unresolved consciousness our inner pieces of duality.

Most times our inner piece of duality is created during an incident when we were angry, fearful, and out of control. Until this inner piece is released, it will continue to attract similar energies or people from the world around us, intensifying our issues. When you resolve your inner piece of duality you will feel a physical release. Visually, I see the release as a puff of dark smoke drifting away.

Moving out of dualities is the quickest way to access our multidimensionality. One of the things we have to face as we leave this dimension is the Void. The Void has been described as both completely neutral and totally reflective. What we may face in the Void is the remainder of any of our fears or those pieces of our inner duality that we have yet to bring into balance, intensified one thousand times.

I found my piece of inner duality by a natural process that occurred spontaneously in the fall of 1993. I was in Long Island teaching workshops and seeing clients. For three nights in a row, every time I closed my eyes I saw in my mind's eye a series of three pictures. Each picture represented a scene out of my life when I had an enormous emotional reaction.

The first of the three pictures I saw was an event that had occurred in my life. The second picture in the series was a view of my original emotional reaction to the event. The third picture in the series was how I felt about the event now. I found that if I still experienced any emotional charge to the event, the series of three pictures would reappear. Picture one was still of the original event, presented in a slightly different way. Picture two changed into the emotional reaction I had just experienced from viewing the original event. Picture three was how I presently felt about the slightly changed view of the original event.

Each time I continued to experience an emotional charge around the presented event, the sequence of three pictures repeated. Each repetition offered a slightly different view of the original event. This continued over and over, until I no longer experienced an emotional reaction. Once all the charge was gone for the particular set of visuals, the process began again, and I examined yet another event in my life. After three long nights of processing millions of pictures, I was left with one reoccurring set.

I believe this process is similar to what happens when you die and review your life. Any energetic patterns that are unresolved at that time will serve to attract similar energies in your next life. This unresolved duality will first be presented to you by the energy of your parents.

My reoccurring set of pictures portrayed an occasion when I had lost my temper with Dennis, a former co-worker of mine. Dennis and I often disagreed on company direction. Dennis had to submit reports on proposed projects to me. At times this arrangement led to differences of opinion. On this particular occasion, Dennis and I exchanged words, and Dennis grabbed my shirt collar and shoved me up against the wall in my office, yelling "Stay out of my face."

My reaction was astonishing. Not usually prone to physical violence, I blanked out. In my unconscious state, I picked up my co-worker and threw him bodily across my office. I then hit Dennis several times, knocking out four of his teeth. My secretary ran into the room and her screams of horror brought me out of my trance state. The last time I had hit anyone was in elementary school when I was nine. I was very embarrassed and amazed at my own behavior. Dennis and I spent a week apart while the company investigated the whole affair. Because Dennis had begun the physical confrontation, I was found blameless. I thought the matter was resolved.

Ten days later I was sitting in the office of the owner, reviewing the current plans to modify the sales approach. Dennis happened to pass by the office and paused in the doorway; he asked if he could come in and talk to us. He said, "Ken, I really want to thank you for what you did the other day!" The owner and I exchanged surprised looks. Dennis continued, "You see, I hate going to the dentist and had put it off for much too long. I needed to go but couldn't force myself to do it. After our fight the other day, I had no choice. The four teeth you knocked out were caps anyway, that's why they came out so easily. When I went to have them put back in, the dentist found a very serious infection in my lower gums, so serious that it was beginning to poison my system. If I hadn't gone when I did, the infection might have killed me." While Dennis' explanation did not excuse my action, I felt much better about the whole incident.

I thought I had completely understood and released this event so it was a surprise when that incident with Dennis was the one series of pictures that was not resolved. I believe that everyone is holding a piece of unresolved duality hidden behind a past physical or emotional trauma. What I realized as I reflecting upon the event, is that I was still caught in the trauma. The way I easily released it was by going through the trauma to the very beginning of the event. When I did that, my inner piece of duality, which was hidden behind the emotional trauma like a black pin-point of energy, released automatically in a puff.

Society's Inner Pieces of Duality

Societies contain their own inner pieces of duality. While I was in England in November 1994, I observed that many of my clients had been living in the same neighborhoods lifetime after lifetime. They were energetically running into themselves or their unresolved traumatic memories over and over again. The energy that was holding them, locking them in place and limiting their choices, was very heavy and reflected the history of that area. This confining energy was a mixture of many things: a rigid class system; religious differences; the influence of satanism; and the division between men and women. These souls were also trapped by traumas in London's past, such as the Black Plague, the fire of London, and German bombing in WW II. During these times, the fear and pain was so intense that it caused unresolved trauma throughout society, creating a ripple or tear in time and trapping these souls.

There was also a lot of energy from England's colonial history with India, Hong Kong, Africa, and the Middle East, further confusing the situation. Former colonial subjects living throughout London are also trapped in their relationship with this energy.

My clients were caught in these ripples. As a result of their healing sessions, they freed themselves and helped heal the consciousness that was holding them and others. This is an integral part of my work; every time we heal the past it changes the present moment, the quality of our creations, and the entire collective consciousness. We are here from the past, in the future, changing the past.

I was again in England in 1998 and the energetic consciousness was completely changed but still slightly chaotic. My clients were no longer trapped in the same past negative energies and were becoming aware and witnessing a major change in consciousness.

Lady Diana was a part of this change. When she died, long time divisions between the throne, common people, and former colonial subjects shifted. England and all the world was united in compassion over a woman who had touched their hearts.

When I am in different geographical locations, I try to be aware of the relevant historical background and types of unresolved inner dualities. The present culture is there to balance the past, which can be extremely intense or deadly. For a culture to free itself from a burdened past, it's necessary to release the entire collective consciousness.

Chakra Clearing

In early 1994 I was teaching workshops in the state of Washington when a thirty-five-year-old woman came to me for a session. She was born in Mexico and at the age of twelve had been sold by her father to an American. The man brought her to the United States and sexually and physically abused her. Her story was very sad.

The woman said she had never thought of running away, because she had no where to go. She could not go home to her family, because she was expected to honor her father's decision. The man who had bought her reminded her of her slavery every day by saying over and over "I own you and you'll do what I want. You will go to bed with me. I own you. You'll cook my meals."

As I began the energetic work in her session, I was aware of her deep levels of sadness. The story of her imprisonment filled my heart with compassion. My Higher Self told me, "Clear her completely of these old patterns, so she no longer needs to experience them. Lift off all this trauma and pain."

I was perplexed by this request because I had never cleared anyone in this way. Taking a breath, I let go of any ideas I had about what I should do next, and I put my trust in Spirit. Immediately it came to me what to do. Spirit told me that if she could match my vibration, she would be able to change hers and let go of anything she was still holding on to. In this way, her past would be released.

This was the first time I did a Chakra Clearing, a technique that I later made an integral part of every HSH session. To begin the clearing, Spirit instructed me to use my right hand, or my pulling hand, and place it over her forehead. Using a drawing motion, I lifted the distorted programs off her.

By starting over her third eye/forehead area, I was told I would be able to clear all the old thoughts and ideas that she had never been able to share, all the things she had wanted to say to her father, mother, owner, or anyone else. I knew this woman held hundreds of thousands of such thoughts inside of her and was continuing to give them energy. This unexpressed energy became fused to the millions of thoughts frozen in her mind and affected her psyche, creative ability, and understanding.

I felt the energy of all these old thoughts and ideas coming out of her forehead and hitting my hand. It felt like millions of painless pin pricks and represented all the thoughts she had never expressed. After a few minutes, the stream of discordant, chaotic energy ceased, and her frozen thoughts were cleared. A natural flow was restored.

Next, I was directed by Spirit to place my pulling hand over her throat. Once again, by trusting Spirit, I knew exactly what to say and do. I asked her, "In how many lifetimes have you been killed for speaking the truth?" She replied, "Seven times."

The energy of all those lifetimes was still locked in her tongue, throat, jaw, teeth, back of her neck, and ears and represented her issues with speaking her truth and being who she was. As spirit, she had chosen to come back one more time to see if she could understand what she had been creating around these issues. To further accelerate her experience of understanding, she had chosen to be born female and into a society that did not honor women or children. In Washington state, she had created a situation where it was not safe for her to speak her truth, further intensifying her lesson.

As with the energy that had been trapped in the area of her forehead, I could feel all the old energy being released from her throat chakra and pouring into my hand. I asked her, "How many lifetimes have you been killed for helping other people?" She replied, "Nine times." As she did so, another wave of energy hit my hand, and I realized how much energy was still being held at the base of her neck, her upper back, and her shoulders. She was energetically cut off by a line across her throat area. Basically, she had only been safe in her body from her neck up, making it almost impossible for her to be present and grounded. There was no way energy could cross that line. This had occurred because there had been so many lifetimes when she could not express herself and had been killed for sharing her thoughts and speaking her truth. The chaotic energy continued to release into my hand for five minutes.

I then moved my hand over her heart. I had her release all the times she had been hurt in the name of love and all the ways she had been less than unconditionally loving with herself. Some energy came out but much less than before. I have realized since that the heart is usually the most centered and balanced chakra because of all the emphasis that religions have placed on having a loving heart, especially Christianity.

I next moved my hand over her solar plexus and told her to release into my hand all the people who wanted to control her. I also asked her to release all the times it had not been safe for her to take her power or all the times she took her power and something bad happened. I had her release any distortions over power and control and any cording she had with anyone. As my hand was over her solar plexus, I directed her to say in her mind, over and over, "I take control of my body. I take control of my life."

As she did this, I could feel strings of gooey, sticky energy coming out of her third chakra. The way she was corded to her father and her owner felt like the tentacles of an octopus, allowing them to control her. Their thoughts and ideas, which are also cords, had been affecting her physical body, depleting and taking her life-force energy. We both could feel that energy as it was releasing out of her belly and into my hand. It took about five minutes for all those dynamics to release and balance.

Spirit then directed me to place my pulling hand over her lower belly and say, "You need to be who you are, not what society says, or what your father, mother or owner say you should be. There is not one of us who can be the way others have told us to be. You need to be who you really are. Release all the projections, expectations, and judgements anyone has ever put on you, and all the ways you have ever compromised yourself to fit in, to be liked, or to be loved. As you do that, I want you to say over and over in your own mind, 'I am female and I have the power of the feminine.'"

As she said this over and over mentally, I could feel the energy release out of her belly. Soon she moved into a place of balance, her female and male energy becoming one. She could be whatever she needed to be, not taking away from what she was. Now she had balance and could make different choices.

Then Spirit told me to move my pulling hand five inches lower, over her base chakra, and say, "I want you to push out into my hand every thought, feeling, or emotion, ever projected onto you, in you, or through you." As she pushed out, I could feel her former owner's ideas, feelings, and thoughts, as well as his emotions of contempt, pain, anger, guilt, hate, and shame pour into my hand. She released the all the different emotions both of them had been feeling when her owner used her sexually. While it was easy to understand how her base chakra had become completely distorted, it was surprising to find out that the energetics she had picked up during sexual acts with her owner had also distorted her other chakras.

I then asked her, "How much of you has been missing?" To my surprise she said, "All." Apparently, when she was a little girl and was sold, she had energetically stated "I don't want to be here" and a large part of her spirit split off, stepped out of her body, and was watching her. This was the only way she had been able to handle the emotional, mental, and physical pain of what had happened to her. There was only a little of her still left inside her body. I asked her what would happen if she brought that missing part back in, and she said, "I would be enlightened. I would be free, full of life and love."

Touched by her answer, I told her it was now time to bring that missing part of herself back in through the crown of her head, while continuing to push all the old energy out through her base chakra. I said, "You push and I'll pull." As she did, I could feel the old energy drain into my outstretched fingers. I could also feel the lightness of her spirit as it re-entered her body through her crown chakra and traveled down her spine. She fully merged with who she was by bringing all of herself back into her body. She had taken her power, and her body was under her control again, perhaps for the first time in her life. This was the first time she could really feel herself. She was now safe to experience her power and be who and what she truly was. Her body was now her sacred space to do with as she wished.